will be out for movie in 2 minutes time.

I practically din't sleep last night because I drank some coke mixed with ginger. I was fully awake the whole night. Wonder what will happen today.. Will I get so sleepy that I just bump into some walls or cars maybe. Maybe I'll just fall asleep when I am at work, and my boss has to use some big alarm clock to wake me up.

Ok, I guess it won't happened. I had some serious sleeping problems.

Of late, I was too addicted to chatting online with a virtual guy. It is so virtual that I practically did not know who is this person. Isn't it dangerous? You get addicted to online, get addicted to talking to someone you din't know of, and you get addicted to him online replying your messages.. It was so dangerous. I should just stop that addiction...

I'll just learn to blog. Its much safer, at least you won't get addicted to expecting someone will reply you. hopefully so~~~ kaka~

Church is such a miracle place. I feel so depressed lately. But once I came out of church, I feel a bit high and ~~~its just so hard to decribe the feelings~~..

Anyway, the feeling went away after I had a sleepless night.

I wonder if I should take up more activities to flourish up my life. But I am just so lazy. I thought of doing a lot of things, but I ended up doing nothing, just nothing. Arrr, what a terrible life I had. Yet, my friends told me I am in a bed of roses, that's why I have time thinking all these. But remember? Roses have thorns.....

I just had too much negative thoughts in me. Being tied down with all these negative thoughts. I know what's happening to myself. I just cant get out of this wrecked situation...I am just so frustrated~~!!!

Do you spend a lot of time plan for your future so that you can change your current lifestyle?

That is destination addict.

Of late, I keep on planning for my future, but it does not come to a conclusion. I am a destination addict. I am unhappy with my current life, so I look forward to a better future that I planned. It never works though...

In fact, I feel much depressed at my current state. I did not enjoy the single thing I went through everyday.

Get rid of the destination-addict-behaviour. Enjoy the current state. Forget about 'plan for tomorrow' as tomorrow never comes. Live life fullest for today. Forget yesterday's mistake, its history and you can never change it. Put a beautiful full-stop for today.

moody...

wondered why.

losing faith...

wondered why.

lost...

wondered why.

arg! It took me 3 attempts to enter this blog everytime! @#$#%^%&^&^

I must really learn to remember all my passwords!! I have so much passwords now!!! Why is it passwords are so important!!! Password oh password~~!

I wonder why am I depressed. I wanted to go back home, but I am stuck in a cold room reading some nonsense which was supposed to be useful. Anyway, I end up blogging some nonsense. I am waiting for my aunt to call me up but I guess my stomach just couldn't wait longer. I guess I will just call up someone to take dinner with me. Argh... I hate to think that I don't even have a single proper friend to take dinner. It sounds so pitiful and pathetic. And yes, I am a pathetic person - living like a dead body, doing a job that I don't know if I like it or not, smilling and laughing as if I am happy, waiting as if there is someone who might just date me any moment.

I just had a feeling why should I even exist and take this pathetic life. What am I waiting and hoping for?

I will stop bragging here.... I will end up pitying myself even more. haih....

My cousin's left eye was very painful, so she asked me to accompany her to see the eye specialist. So we went. But it was closed, and it stated that we had to go over to the A&E Department. And so, we went.

We took temperature and went in and at the Registration counter, we paid. Then, we were given a file and asked to post at a tray. And so, she got called within 5 mins. Wow, super efficient!

They took her blood pressure and temperature again, asked what was the problem. Then we were asked to go out and wait at another zone. We waited for 1++ hours and her name was called. She said that the doctor told her he could not diagnosed what was the problem with her eye, have to transfer her to the eye specialist. So she came out and we waited and waited....

2 hours passed by....

Then she was called and went into the room. Less than 10 mins she was out! The doctor applied some sort of "magical eyedrop" in which she needs to wait for 30 mins before being called again. So, we waited again....

50 mins gone.....

She was called in and came out within 5 mins. Then, she was allowed to go home. We wasted 5 hours warming up a hospital's chair...

*****

I wonder why they named such a place A&E Department...Oh yeah, A&E stands for Accident and Emergency.

This is my first entry. I was thinking of writing something really interesting and special for my first entry, but I could thought of nothing. Ok, I will just start thinking now what I should write for my second entry to make it much more interesting than this stupid first entry. :)